We used to fight every time it was time to nurse.
Baby E couldn’t latch on and would get so frustrated. If he did latch on somehow, it would be incorrect and would hurt me so bad. He was tearing away at my skin little by little. His shrilled cry would get louder and L O U D E R and I didn’t know what else to do. I was afraid that he was going to starve. FAIL. I knew there was no other option for me BUT to breastfeed. Not knowing how or what to do, I initially started to pump milk into bottles so
At this point, I was now ready to start breastfeeding again, however, Baby E had his own agenda. He had been so used to getting fed from the bottle that when I tried to nurse him, he would have a look of disdain and want nothing to do with it. Spitting out the nipple and would only stop crying once given the bottle. I was at an all time low. [I thought “He doesn’t like me, he doesn’t need me, he doesn’t want me”] I thought I would never breastfeed normally.
In my countless nights of research, I finally came across some other mothers who had very similar issues as I did and they used something called the ‘nipple shield‘ with their child. The nipple shield Medela Contact Nipple Shield, Medium
After about a week or so of him getting comfortable with the nipple shield, I was ready to start weaning him off. Every other feeding or in the middle of his feeding, I would remove the shield and he would latch on to me. Gradually, we stopped using the shield altogether. Now today, we successfully breastfeed without the use of any outside aids! I had and currently HAVE so much great support from my husband.
*To some this may see like no big deal but to me this was a great victory!